Sunday, February 27, 2011

anyday


wake up to cat scratching my face. throw cat off bed. yell. check time on cell phone. if its past 4 am, i take a pill. and then i take another pill. i try to fall back to sleep. success rate variable. if returning to sleep was successful, either wake up to cat scratching my face (repeat: throw cat off bed. yell), or to alarm. turn off alarm. get up. get out of bed with likeness of old, old man. change. spray on deodorant. wash hair and face. fix hair. pak lunches. make bed. make pot of coffee/warm up cup of coffee. drink coffee with desperate fervor. go on computer. no wall posts. only work emails. check out the news. shake head. make breakfast whilst getting ready. eat breakfast. wash dishes. dry dishes. put away dishes. mouthwash. brush teeth. put long sleeve shirt on. put hoodie on. put scarf on. put coat on. check pilot lights. lace or slip on shoes. shoo cat from door. exit apartment. lock door. check door. exit building. ask myself if this is really what i want to be doing. walk 0.9 miles to the lab. ask myself if this is really what i want to be doing. ascend five flights of stairs. ask myself if this is really what i want to be doing. go to office. remove outdoor attire. put lunches in fridge. ask myself if this is really what i want to be doing. go into lab. do lab stuff. ask myself if this is really what i want to be doing. eat lunch while reading papers. ask myself if this is really what i want to be doing. leave prematurely to catch bus to east campus for class. ask myself if this is really what i want to be doing. play on computer through class. ask myself if this is really what i want to be doing. catch bus to go home. get off at bus stop. walk to apartment building. enter through front. check mail. only junk. walk downstairs. unlock door. enter apartment. cat is there to greet me. it is cute. moments later, cat evolves into hell’s gatekeeper. sigh. put shit away. make dinner. listen to news. eat dinner. wash dishes. dry dishes. take shower. make a drink. get on the couch. watch tv. spray cat with water to discourage from eating pushpins off the wall. get another drink. watch tv. continue to reprimand cat to no avail. eat a snack. give up on reprimanding cat. pass out on couch. wake up. get in bed. stare at the wall until i fall asleep.
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