everything has felt unusually odd lately. could it be the changing of the weather? absolutely. could it be the rediscovery of alcohol? absolutely. could it be that ive realized that graduate school leaves me with the life i wanted—which is to say without one—when i am now discovering that sometimes itd just be nice to have a shittyass 9-5 job that i can forget about at 5pm and not be expected to be some supergenius who i to become trained to save the word? absolutely. could it be that no matter where i settle down i always find my life being less than what i wanted it to be? absolutely.
do i find this to be the most infantile of rants?
but it feels nice to say.