its happening again.
my brain is going absolutely bonkers.
i want to sleep, but i cant keep my eyes shut.
i am perfectly comfortable, but i just cant sit still.
i am hungry, but i have no appetite.
i am in pain, but i feel no pain.
i want friends and family to come see me, but i just want to be alone.
i want to make music, but i dont pick up my guitar.
i want to read, but i dont pick up a book.
i want to watch a movie, but i dont turn on the television.
i want to go outside, but i keep the door shut—i do not put on my shoes.
the one thing that i do want though, without contradiction, is to go swimming.